Emails i Can’t Send

It’s times likes these
Wish i had a time machine
So i could see
What u did
October 13th
At 10:15
Were you really asleep ?
were you lying to me
And the family
There’s no us in us

When I’m lacking trust
you wanna discuss
Ugh You disgust me
Don’t make me cuss you out
why’d you let me down
don’t say sorry now
And thanks to you i
I can’t love right
I get nice guys

And villainize them
Read their texts like
They’re having sex right
Now scared I’ll found out
That it’s true and
If i do
Then I blame you
For every worst
that i assume

When I’m 45
Someone calls me their wife and
He fucks our lives
In one selfish night
Don’t think I’ll
Find forgiveness
As fast as mom did
and God i love you
But you’re such a dipshit please
Fucking fix this
cause you were all i looked up to
Now i can’t even look at you